Vee’s Inspiration May 16, 2024

Mom,  May 16, 2011, it’s been 13 years since you went away.  Today, as some who are close to me may know, is the toughest day of the year for me.  Some of those years and days have been more difficult than others.  This year has been tough and today is a tough one.  Real talk,  there are many days I feel completely alone and don't feel like there is anyone I can have the type of conversations you and I had.  You had a way of communicating that made things seem so obvious.  I chuckle, because so many things that weren't as obvious then are crystal clear now.  I understand what you meant when you told me there would be times I will be alone.  I guess that why “being alone” has always been one of my biggest fears.  I understand that you were referring to the lonely mental journey of life.  It's funny because there are so many times when I’m around people and feel isolated and alone.  And when I explain, talk about, or do things, people look at me and say I’m different.  I smile and say, “that’s what Mom was talking about.”  Yes, there are many times I feel physically and mentally alone, but as I have matured,  I have started to use those moments to learn more about myself.  I've learned to appreciate myself more and have learned,  it’s ok to be alone and “sit” in my thoughts.  

Mom, you've always said I had a special gift, and for a long time I always thought that's what moms are supposed to say to their children.  This year I learned what my special gift is.  I'll keep that as our secret.  Thank you for believing in me when it seemed like no one else did,  thank you for those conversations that I play over and over again in my head,  thank you for imparting so much wisdom.  You knew it then and told me, but It took some time for me to really understand,  I get it now.  

Thank you mom!

I’ve put down the alcohol down for now, but  I raise my proverbial glass filled with your favorite drink, Apple Martini, as I toast you… Cheers… I love you and miss you everyday, I’ll shed a tear or two, but please know your baby boy is doing okay.  

Continue to Rest in Peace

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