Vee’s Inspiration September 21, 2023
It can happen in the blink of an eye. Yesterday was one of those days. I was tired after a long day of working and traveling. After checking into my hotel, I ordered dinner from DoorDash. The lack of professionalism and disrespect from the door dash driver flicked my crazy Gemini switch. Unfortunately for me, I was prepared to knuckle up and was ready for whatever. I say unfortunately for me because that's how “IT” happens. “IT” being actions that could result in negative consequences. We see these negative consequences manifest every day in the news. I know better and still, the words and actions of this person led me to an altered state. As I self-evaluate and self-critique, I imagine this altered state is the same insanity that drives people to hurt other people over some insignificant issue. In hindsight, I'm embarrassed by my temporary loss of control. Here’s the crazy thing, I did not curse at the person, I did not threaten or show any outward sign of aggression, but I was raging inside. I was tempted to grab the guy by his neck and put him to sleep when he dropped the bag containing my food on the ground in front of a trash can and then put my two bottles of water on top of the trash can and said, “ I got something else to do. “ Man, I was .38 hot and wanted to do something physical, but I didn't. I threw the food away took my bottles of water and contacted Doordash.
In hindsight, I'm more upset with myself for allowing someone else to take me to a place that could have had so many negative consequences. Sure, I did not exhibit any outward physical actions, but I lost the internal battle.
Here are some of the lessons I took away from this experience.
Be mindful of my interactions when I’m tired.
Don't beat myself up too much, this could have gone off the rails quickly.
I've made some real improvements, I'm proud of those things. The younger me would have tried to take his head off
Anger is a waste of good energy, why give my energy to someone who can't receive it for whatever reason
See from their perspective, maybe they were going through something terrible but still had to work to survive.
No action can be the best action in some situations.
Don't stay mad or frustrated for too long, life is fleeting, so don't waste it on negative things.
I'm thankful I've matured over the years
Maybe I was not supposed to eat the steak I ordered🤔.
Never waste an opportunity to learn from a good or bad experience.
Have a great Thursday!
Stay safe!