Vee’s Inspiration August 25, 2023
Surgery…
The primary goal was to make it through surgery and relieve the pain I've been dealing with. My secondary goal which I told both my wife and the anesthesiologist was to make it to 85 when they gave me the “goto sleep drugs”, and asked me to count backward from 100, I made it to 83😉👍🏽💪🏽. Everything went well. I should be back 100% soon. The Doctor removed a 5-centimeter Lipoma (the size of an egg) from my back which was pressing against the nerves. We think the nerves were further agitated when I got electrocuted a few weeks ago. Pain has been my constant companion for the past 4 months. Thank you to the people who reached out to check on me after my surgery.
The other more sobering thing that always happens to me when I wake up from the hold of the drugs is the feeling of nothingness. Once I am put under with the drugs and then I suddenly wake up. My first thought is, “Is that what death will be like?” For me, it’s always a scary and lonely feeling. That initial waking-up experience puts so many things into perspective. That is probably the reason why I am always terrified of going under general anesthesia. Facing my terror this week was the bravest thing I've done in a while and I'm proud of myself. I'm proud I was able to function normally despite my fears. I think I kept that fear close to my chest pretty well. I'm thankful for having a successful surgery that removed the pain I've been dealing with for a few months. I salute the people who have to go through multiple surgeries and difficult, life-determining circumstances regularly. I am especially appreciative of the people who simply checked in on me, either directly or through Anissia.
To my wife, Thank you for taking care of me and making sure I was good❤️. To Barry, your phone call last night meant the world to me. Thank you Demarcus for your many check-in texts. Thank you to my sister, my niece, Dad, Barbara, Steven, Ken, Marcus, Anita, Butch, Sanford, Walter, Yolonda, Walt, Joe, Hillary, Aunt Paula, Uncle Jake, Karen, Wayne, Andre, Tammy, Kaye, Brice, and Kim for taking the time to reach out. I appreciate you taking the time to check in on me.
My wife says, “I share too much”, But this is who I am.
Lord, I'm thankful.
Have a great Friday!
Stay safe!