Vee’s Inspiration April 12, 2024

Momma…

Momma,  I know you told me you would not always be here,  but Momma I still thought you would always be here.  To hold me and mold me and keep away the fear.  To show me and to grow me in this tough world I have to bear.  Momma, I know you told me you would not always be here, but I thought you were just being a momma bear, trying to teach me how to stand without fear of the unknown that the world hasn't shown, but will show and how to navigate that life show, and how to avoid the mental and physical strife that seems to permeate life,  but oh momma I know you told me you would not always be here,  but momma I still have that fear of the boogie man behind every mirror that you wiped away with confidence and calm and assured me the boogie man doesn't live in this mirror that reflects all the possibilities that I see in you through me.  Oh momma I'm scared to see these possibilities without you and me.  The reflection in the mirror is now without you and I’m scared of what that reflection looks like with just me.  Momma, I know you told me you would not always be here, but I don’t know how to look back into the look of despair from the others who also thought you would always be here.  Their eyes that once reflected the radiance of you and all the you’s that are reflected off every word that you ever said and shall remain the gentle mantra in my head of how I must continue to go ahead,  alone, but not alone, because you are here- like you have always been here- to smile and chase away my fear.  But Momma, I thought you told me you would not always be here.  Son I told you what you needed to hear.  So one day you could stand without the fear of those difficult things that one day you will have to bear,  but see, I’m still here watching and smiling like that proud momma bear.  I'm proud of the boy you've been and the man you are, I’m so proud I was your momma bear.  My son, It’s time for me to rest awhile but rest assured, I rest with peace and a smile, knowing that you are strong enough to continue doing great things, gentle enough to help others who are not strong enough, and kind enough to smile as you do it.

To a friend from a friend,  may Momma rest in peace.

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